I'm going to warn you that this post is nothing more than a ridiculous whine-fest.

I'm terrible at waiting. 

Actually, I take that back. Apparently I'm pretty good at it for about 6 months, but 6 months seems to be my personal limit and then I begin to crack.

I am ready to see my children. I am ready to have my family together and move on with life. For more than 9 months (14 months if you include paperwork chasing and 2 years if you count waiting for RJ to get on the adoption wagon) I've been waiting for a dark-skinned lovey from Africa. For nearly 30 weeks I've been waiting for the arrival of another precious son.

At first I was able to wait with purpose and good-cheer. Now I'm over it. 

I KNOW God is teaching me things during this period of waiting. I KNOW that He holds the timing completely in His hands and that His timing is ALWAYS perfect. I KNOW that compared to so many other people's struggles and hurts I haven't even been waiting for all that long. I have a dear friend that has been waiting for healing for a chronic illness for years. Who am I to complain?! But my heart is once again having a tough time catching up with my head. My head gets that waiting is just part of the game. Part of the refining process. My heart wants to scream and shout and throw a toddler-sized temper tantrum because I am yearning for the next phase.

Funny thing is I also know that in only 10 weeks one of my little people will make his grand debut. And a few weeks later I'll be so exhausted I'll probably wish I could go back in time to when he was safely and quietly tucked away inside me. Back to when life was relatively simple and quiet - and I was just waiting.

Friday Favorites

There are few things quite as annoying as children's music.

I will occasionally put on a kids station while listening to Pandora but until recently I had refused to endure the sing-song lyrics of Raffie while driving. 

Then I heard Landon bust-out a mildly inappropriate Katy Perry lyric from his carseat; and I realized it was time to rethink my priorities.

My girlfriend had given me two Seeds of Encouragement CDs months earlier gushing about their wonderfulness. "These CDs are not only easy to listen to but actually enjoyable," she insisted. "Plus, both my daughter and I are learning scriptures through the songs."

And I have to admit - she was right.

The Seeds CDs are rockin'.

Just straight scripture set to music they are absolutely not annoying - I actually really enjoy a few of the songs.

They're help me memorize more Bible in the past month that in the past ten years AND I get the sweet pleasure of hearing a tiny two-year old voice belt out 

"Do not be anxious, about anything..."

Plus, I've taught Landon that each song is about God, so he asks me what each one means and it has opened up wonderful conversations.

You can find the CD's here at Seeds Family Worship.

We have Seeds of Encouragement and Seeds of Courage. 

Landon and I both like Seeds of Courage a bit better but both are excellent.

3 Months Left

 

When I think about our little guy making his big arrival in a mere 3 months I get a bit overwhelmed. Yet, when I think about being pregnant for 3 MORE MONTHS I get totally overwhelmed. 

I am over being pregnant. Honestly I don't have anything in particular to complain about, just the regular aches and discomforts. I'm just ready to have my full energy and my body back. But, since this very well could by my last pregnant I am trying to enjoy it and savor the closeness of having my little guy literally attached to me and to me alone.

13 weeks seems like a long time but our list of things to do and enjoy before our newest arrival will definitely help time pass quickly. Over the next few months we are looking to:

- finish the boys' room

- covert our spare room/den into a playroom

- enjoy a few special activities with Landon such Kids Space in Pasadena 

- visit with Uncle Matthew, Aunt Jessica and Aunt Kaitlyn!!!

- celebrate Landon's 3rd birthday

- try to get away for a long weekend without L

- attend a big adoption conference that's being hosted in California this year

- and soak-up the last few moment of being a family of 3!