Blogging & My Obession

For the past two months my blog has lingered in the back of my mind. It's been prompting me to come sit and write and share. I've been ignoring the pull - choosing instead to indulge myself with light fiction reads and instant episodes of New Girl on Hulu. My brain has been on a bit of a hiatus. Not wanting to work past minimum capacity. Content to simmer in mindlessness while adjusting to a life without sleep (will I ever really sleep again?!) and a new existence in complete emersion into the world of children. It seems that having two littles will seep a person not twice as far into parenthood but four times further. Despite our best intentions the kids dominate. And while their needs are not particularly difficult they are all-consuming -- leaving the mind very little space for extra occupations. 

But, as Parker is now about to hit that 6 month milestone, I feel the tide is shifting once again. The fog is lifting. I'm still physically exhausted by 8pm - ready to collapse into the couch with a bowl of ice cream and a days worth of status updates - but our days are so much lighter. I feel okay being with the kids on my own while RJ's at work. We are actually having fun together. Parker sleeps regular naps now and Landon can help me fold laundry. The boys love each other and I'm (rarely) needing to rescuing Parker from Landon's over-exuberance and/or jealousy. I'm able to venture to the zoo with the both of them and actually enjoy myself. Family of four is the new normal. 

As we settle into this new normal I feel my mind returning. I am able to focus on myself a bit (which actually makes me a better mother overall). I'm reading my Bible again - rather than just staring blankly at the page or rereading the same Psalm 10x while retaining nothing. I just signed-up to run a race in the spring. RJ and I got away for an entire night alone and I'm about to head to Palm Springs for a full weekend without kiddos. And I am ready to log back into blogger and put pen to paper. 

So thanks for sticking with me. Change and adjustment are always difficult, but Parker's addition to our family (while hard at moments) has been absolutely incredible. And we are gearing up to grow again - all in God's perfect timing. 

My Obsession:

this little dude

He is a joy. A delight. 

He may have had colic for the first 3 months of his life.

He still gets me up for a 4am feeding.

And gas occasionally continues to plague that cubby little body.

But never have I met a more smiley little boy.

His grin is enormous.

He's been belly laughing for months.

He LOVES his big brother,

and wiggles all his limbs enthusiastically when Daddy feeds him dinner.

He squeals with delight, gives kisses to everyone, 

and charms all who meet him with his open mouthed smile.

And maybe it's because he's probably my last little baby

(we are expecting to adopt a little lady about 18 months)

but I am obsessed with him.

I seriously want to stall time like never before.

Poor boy is nearly always in clothes too small because I can't bear to move up to the next, bigger size.

He wants to eat more solid foods but I'm hesitating - just because it proves he's growing up.

I am so incredibly thankful for the gift of this boy.

I could seriously eat-him-up.